Really? Really?!

Sometimes people are just rude and hurtful. And worse? They're rude and hurtful--and don't care. I don't get it but it makes me want to SCREAM. I cannot stand it but there's nothing I can do about it. Not a GD thing. But I'll tell you one thing: it's not right.

Turkish Nights

I can't believe the hoops you have to jump thru to buy a house. I mean, we're putting 25% CASH down, we've lived in the same place for 16 years, have established jobs (10 yrs for me and 18 yrs for him), we have children in schools here, we've provided every little nosy bit of info they ask of us and then 24 hours before signing, I find out I have to prove where the first $3000 (good faith deposit) came from. This is amazing. THEN: 4:30pm on a Thursday, somebody calls wanting to do an employee verification on ME--and guess who's the ONLY supervisor on duty right then? ME! My immediate supervisor won't be back for a week. OMG, I can't stand it. This lady on the phone basically said "well, I know you work there," (Oh, you think? All those copies of paycheck stubs you wanted and AUTOMATIC DEPOSITS into my bank account didn't fool you, did they?!)

So now, a house that was supposed to have been signed for on Oct. 22, then Oct. 24, is now set to be signed for on Oct. 28. The house is ready, the money is ready, WE'RE ready, for crying out loud--what's the big deal?! You should see my house. Oh, Calgon take me away. Boxes everywhere, piles of stuff waiting for boxing, new stuff for the new house sitting around. I found this wonderful deal on silk trees? Bought 4. Now it's like a jungle in the old house, cuz there's no room for all that. I walked in the other night and it came to me: Turkish Bazaar! That's what we're living in the middle of. Shades of Arabian nights. All it lacks is a little man with a flute (or whatever they call them) conjuring a cobra out of basket. Could be one and I'm just not seeing it, I suppose. (OH, I know, I've got my ethnic groups and my geography all wonky but I'm painting a oral painting here. Get a grip.)

I'm gonna pack something tonight after work then I swear to God, I'm sitting down on MY couch, with MY cat, surrounded by MY family and gonna watch a movie. That is, if we can find the DVD player. And the remote...and the cat....

Yoo-hoo, I'm Heee-e-e-e-r-r-r-e!

I swear, sometimes I think I'm the luckiest girl on the face of the planet. If I stop and think about it, I have so much to be thankful for! And I HAVE had dreams that have come true and prayers that have been answered. Like for instance:
1. I'm married. Honest to God, there was a time when I thought I'd be alone till the end of time. Now I've been married for 25 years. Once I stopped trying, the perfect guy fell into my lap.
2. I have children. And exactly as "ordered!" Boy, girl, boy, girl. And perfect. And beautiful.
3. I'm moving into a brand new house!
4. I have no terminal illness.
5. I'm going to Disneyland!
God blesses me all the time. You know how sometimes things just seem to fall in place? That's God. Reminding you that He's there. Awesome.

Time was, when I wouldn't have wanted to share thoughts with anybody, much less people who might find me in cyberspace of all places. But as I'm getting older, I'm realizing that it just may be possible--just maybe, you know, possible--that I'm not going to realize all my dreams or get everything done I want to do before I die. Maybe. Don't count me out yet but you know, tick-tock, tick-tock...So, here are 10 things I want to do before I die. I was going to just do "a list of things I want to do before I die" but it's late and I'm sleepy so I'm limiting to the first 10 that pop in my head for now. They're listed in no particular order, just as they come to me.

1. ride a horse on the beach

2. go for a ride in a hot air balloon. NOT go sky-diving or bungie-jumping. you people are crazy.

3. read every book on my list. okay, listS. i write down book titles on everything.

4. have grandchildren.

5. stay on the beach until i'm literally tired of it.

6. write a book.

7. be the star of something.

8. not worry about ANYthing for, like, 24 hours.

9. sleep more than 5 hours in a row.

10. lose 50 pounds. yeah, i said 50. read 'em and weep. 'course, then i might lose the lap i'm working on for the grandchildren (see #4).

Coming next: dreams that have already come true for me.

Later.